The development of freedom
Updated: May 28, 2023
How i got on the trail of freedom.
When I was asked to determine my most important values in a seminar, I wasn't really aware that freedom was one of the most important things. I felt free and so I thought I was free too and that's all good.
The more I deal with myself, my life and how I want to shape it, the more I realize how important my freedom is to me and that it is not that easy to be completely free.
I lived in a beautiful apartment in Hamburg for a long time, have - still do - the best permanent job I can imagine and which I even enjoy. In addition, many dear friends around me. In principle, I felt great and mostly felt free because I did what I wanted and what made me happy.
In my travels, especially those where I lived alone in another country, I noticed a further sense of freedom.I could just be for the first time. I could do whatever I wanted. Because there was no one who expected anything from me. Be it something beautiful or something disturbing. After trips like this, back in Hamburg, my life up until then seemed even narrower. Sometimes I really needed time to find myself again. I thought to myself, well, that's the way it is and hopefully I'll travel again soon.
Over time, I questioned "normal life" more and more. Questions like: Does it really have to be like this? Can't I create a life in which I feel free and happy? I would like to say that I wasn't unhappy. Only I always had the feeling that there had to be more.
This resulted in my current trip and the opportunity to overwinter. Half a year in the south! With Amano and our camper! The awareness of not having to go back after a short time was fantastic. And now we have even extended!
On this life journey, I constantly encounter new aspects of freedom.
In our campervan we are not tied to a fixed place. We can live almost anywhere and discover the most beautiful places. We organize our days largely freely and enjoy it every day!
On the other hand, life as a couple in such a small space is sometimes challenging. I notice that just having a place of retreat for yourself can bring a feeling of freedom! It's not always easy in our new everyday life, but we learn a lot about ourselves here and grow together.
In our society we have all learned to limit our freedom because we have a general idea of life. Live an instinctive life. You build a home, raise a family, and create a legacy. We are guided by this unconsciously. I try to steer my life consciously. To look closely at what makes me happy, what is out of the norm. Such a new way of life raises doubts on the outside. Sometimes I feel restricted by these worries and fears. Where as trust and confidence give me freedom.
Even before I traveled, I thought about building a blog and reporting about the trip. Hardly on the way, I was already stressing myself about finally having to get started. But I was the only one who set this goal. The fast pace of today and the social pressure to HAVE TO do something subconsciously fed my mind. I couldn't quite let go of these thoughts. So having freedom is also in me. To free myself from my mind. To feel what feels free and right.
So I'm becoming more and more aware of the value of freedom. They are on the outside and on the inside. To be truly free you need both and then it feels wonderfully awesome! At least I have this premonition, because I still don't feel completely free, but I'm working on it with a lot of joy!
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